"basically there's f*** all you can do about it"

OK, so the surgeon has advised that if I am to have radiotherapy, it shouldn't be restricted to just the lymph node that is in the groin area, but they should also treat the other diseased nodes elsewhere in my abdomen. Given that there are quite a lot of them (according to the original CT scan), this is a different undertaking altogether.

He did question why the recommendation was for radio rather than chemo therapy, and I just told him what I was told this morning. The chemo might work, but it wouldn't cure anything and it would make me pretty sick while it was doing its stuff. The radio therapy is much more local, and while it does have side effects, they are nothing like the chemo ones.

You just have to trust that these people know what they are doing and get on and do it with/to you.

He is to write to both my GP and my haematologist with his thoughts, and make sure that the images from the CT scan are passed on to the second hospital.

We had a good chat about stuff actually. I told him that despite this being pretty crap news this summer, you just have to get on with life. "Agreed", he said "as basically there's fuck all you can do about it".

Which is pretty honest...

So, now we are back to the waiting game again, pending the receipt of the scan images by the haematologist. September will be here soon...